I Miss The Old Blogging

18 May

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This week one of my favorite bloggers retired from the blogging world.

She was one of the first bloggers I really got into, about four years ago, when my blog obsession began.  I spent nearly a year reading the entire archives of several blogs and falling in love with their writers and their words.  Those bloggers, the first few, are still so important to me.  I know them from 10 years ago.  I feel like I know them!

As I read this blogger’s goodbye comments, I was overwhelmed with how many people felt the same way as I did.  How many people this one girl’s words had inspired and changed.  How many of us readers felt genuine sadness.

I saw this coming.  You don’t read someone’s words for 10 years and not see something like this coming.  But I hoped it wouldn’t. I refreshed her page over the past few months, wishing for a killer essay that would get me writing and thinking and blogging again.

Instead I got a farewell.

All of my favorite bloggers, the ones from those times, are basically gone.  Sure, they may update a few times a year now, but there was this golden time, well before I started blogging, where they were updating nearly every day.  Where silliness and inner thoughts and unworried posts were thrown together.

Today there’s so much hate online you have to watch every word and even then you’re not safe.

Today there’s so many sponsorships online you can’t believe any word and even then you’re not safe.

Many of these original bloggers are married and have children and they are giving their families privacy and separating themselves from hate and I am glad for them, but I am also sad that I am losing them.  I’m losing the rants and opinions and the real thoughts.  The uncensored posts.  I love those.  Getting a blog post from one of those writers is like waking up to a bouquet of fresh hydrangeas at my door.  A big, puffy gift.

Now this gift is done giving.

And my eyes are puffy.

(This took a turn.)

I’ve been thinking a lot about blogging lately.  How fashion bloggers are now in the millions of followers and milliosn of dollars category.  How these girls (often) offer the same rotated few words:

Totally obsessed with these new (free and sponsored) shoes!!!!

These shoes!!!! (free and sponsored)

I don’t want this to be a judgement on fashion bloggers.  They are their own thing.  But it makes me sad that my blogging world is being reduced to these same few sentences and non-opinions. That the women with voices and unfiltered thoughts and skills and lives and words I aspire to are slowly dripping away.

It’s been happening for years now.  The Wild West of the blogging world is gone and we are fully into the very manufactured, all-alike suburbia.

I miss it.

I wasn’t even a part of it, I feel like I sort of got on the blogging train a few stops too late, that if I were to really have dove into this thing I needed to start 10 years ago, I needed to build some big base and to go on some journey that I documented.  And that my silly 2016 words about Chip Gaines and books and little epiphanies I have throughout my very regular days, well, what are they offering anyone?  What are they offering me?

Maybe I should retire, too.

I’m funny like that, I see someone else do something and I immediately question my own decisions.  Even if I’m happy with my current life, watching someone boldly forge a different path makes me wonder if that’s the right path!

If that’s the right podcast!

Eventually I settle in and I calm down and I make my own decisions.

(Mostly.)

And this is my decision.

All the girls in my family are going on a vacation to Texas next month because of my last blog post.

I’m here, baby.

Me and my words are still here.

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12 Responses to “I Miss The Old Blogging”

  1. Macy May 19, 2016 at 8:00 am #

    It really is so sad when bloggers that we love stop blogging, it feels like losing a friend. I miss the “old” blogging as well, and the hate in this world that causes fear to say how you feel is what I hate the most. I am really thankful for the blog friends I have made that I now have a “real life” friendship with though, they get more differently than anyone else, that is why I will continue blogging because I want to see more connections being made.

    • jillianlorraine May 24, 2016 at 8:50 pm #

      Yes–I totally identify with the fear of saying how you feel!

  2. Bailey Brewer May 19, 2016 at 8:12 am #

    your blog posts are a big, puffy gift to me. keep on keepin’ on, ’cause this girl is reading them. xoxoxoxo sending virtual tissues and hugs.

    • jillianlorraine May 24, 2016 at 8:49 pm #

      xoxoxoxo

  3. sarah May 19, 2016 at 2:53 pm #

    girl, i’m with you here, 100%. (probably even including saying farewell to that blogger this week.) blogging is so calculated these days, it feels like hardly anyone does it for the fun of it anymore. i also often think about whether i should still push forward with it, and wonder what would’ve happened if i’d had the guts to create my own back then. so, so glad you’re sticking with it – makes me feel like i can too, and i love reading your words!
    (can you post about the blogs that you’re loving these days? i’m always looking for new ones that channel the old blogging style.)

    • jillianlorraine May 24, 2016 at 8:52 pm #

      Thank you! And yes, I’ll work on a post about the blogs I currently love. Like you said, so few bloggers seem to have any fun with it anymore.

  4. Laura Marie May 19, 2016 at 3:14 pm #

    <3 <3 You know what? I totally get it. I miss the 2009 blog days like crazy. Glad you wrote this, and glad you tagged me :)

    • jillianlorraine May 24, 2016 at 8:55 pm #

      I miss your 2009 blog! One of my all-time favorites. I still love when you blog now, too, obviously :)

  5. Julie Grubbs May 24, 2016 at 2:52 pm #

    I’ve been thinking the same thing for a while. I hate that HNJ had to bid us farewell, but I totally get it considering all the hate that has been spewed her way. It’s ridiculous and it sucks. Wouldn’t it be great if the blogging golden age could leave lived on a little longer? I was trying to finish rereading her archives once more before they were gone, but I didn’t quite make it.

    • jillianlorraine May 24, 2016 at 8:48 pm #

      I didn’t realize her archives were already gone! I should have saved some of those essays.

  6. Alyssa July 5, 2016 at 3:47 pm #

    I feel this way too and I can’t find my old community. It makes me sad. I’m discovering new and exciting blogs everyday though, including yours. So thanks!

    • jillianlorraine July 6, 2016 at 6:28 pm #

      Thank you!

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